Saturday, June 27, 2009

Toys

All week, I've been trying to decide on whether or not I want to get a Celestron Firstscope telescope. Right now, it's on sale at London Drugs for $50 (no, that's not the regular price, the regular is $50USD and I'm in Canada). While I'm familiar with all the deficiencies, it remains the best choice of something I might want to carry out somewhere. It's also gotten some good reviews. I think I might.
Also, reading the reviews pointed me toward something else interesting, the Galileoscope. I wouldn't call it a replica, but it's based on the original design, right down to having an erect eye-piece that's like staring through a straw. There's also a more conventional eye-piece with it. Maybe I'll get one of those too, but I don't think it's worth ordering online. The shipping costs are more than the thing itself.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

98 days

98 days down, going on 102. I just woke up from a strange dream where I was in some sort of war time improvised detainment facility. Anyway, volunteering today. Hoping to pick up some treats along the way to share with the group. I also come to a sad realization, the way dreams are hard to remember is actually almost like commuting. Unless something unusual happens, most people don't remember much, commuting just happens. That's a depressing thought.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I still have my fingers, but other things are broken

I had a near miss at work today. While cutting some material, a bundle of moulding hit me in the arm, pushing it toward the saw. It was a gentle nudge, startling, but no injury. Unfortunately I just cracked the screen of my mp3 player while writing this. Hooked it up to charge, adjusted my chair and crack. I don't really like that one anyway, give me something with swappable batteries. The alarming part with that is that I used to take such good care of my stuff, now everything is just kind of haphazard. I need my space to be more organized.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Almost half way through the year

Next payday I get my vacation pay for the first half of the year. It's scary that so much time has passed and it feels like it's just gone to waste. My life is largely the same. Anyway, 93 days down, going on 97, or possibly 98. Last weekend I was asked to work overtime, this weekend was the other production line's turn. I think next weekend might be my turn again if there is overtime. Also, I now know when I'll be working night shift, July 20 to august 12. 20 days in there and I'm not looking forward to that. The days are long and annoying regardless though. Personally I'm getting kind of sick of that job. I feel so apathetic while I'm there and I can feel it stifling my growth. Sadly though most of my life has been spent waiting for something.
Complaining isn't going to fix it. Planning on the other hand will. I'll have to see what I can think up.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Dreaming

Ok, it's the middle of the night and I don't often get much sleep. I was dreaming about my father again. He was sick and we were gathering family together. I'm not really sure what to say but here's to you dad.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Feeling a bit better now

A bit of cooking and video games has helped smooth things over. Mythbusters helped as well. Right now, I find myself searching for a way to focus and clear my head of distractions. Part of me wonders if I want to try standing in a field practising swordsmanship all day long for a few months. That's not very practical though and I'm afraid I'll just wind up bored. I'm also wondering about music and programming. Music is something that I could probably do just to relax. It's harder to convince people to clear an area to wave a sharp piece of metal around. Programming though is something that I've always had an interest in. Maybe I'll take that up professionally one day. For now though, I kind of miss my old skills and I find myself in want of a few new tools. Strangely when I can't find a program to do what I want, I assess the complexity of the task and wonder if I could code something for that myself. Whatever it is though, I feel like just clearing a few months to just focus myself.
Sadly that'll have to wait while more practical matters take priorities. I need to get ready to move, I need to find a place to move to, and I have money that needs allocating. I've got about $4.2K lined up and ready to go right now. There's another $2.7K or so coming in this month and I'll guess about 0.5K going out. I suppose other things on my to do list include planning for the wedding trip in November. My computer also needs replacing eventually. I find myself wondering what I should go get. Pretty much anything at the lower end of the conventional range will work great for me. Though I find myself drawn to having a low power netbook as well. I'm not sure if having both is really the best combination for me. Anyway, though there's supposed to be some pretty interesting stuff coming out soon. Best to put that decision off till later. Maybe the netbook market will be more mature by the time I actually replace anything.

Scratch a day for depression

I spent most of the day wandering around feeling miserable. Then I took a nap, and I still feel depressed. I regret things that I did in the past, but now I'm building up an understanding of the sort of environment that I need to thrive and how that differs drastically from what I have now.
However, I still feel confident that I'm doing the best that I can to change the situation.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Overtime makes me feel so drained

89 days down, going on 93, or at least I'm not expecting another overtime shift. I'm not sure what to say, other than I just feel tired. It's good to have an extra $150. I find myself wanting to develop though. I feel that my current job is preventing my growth. So much of my energy is drained working there. Though for now, I can accept that as probably the quickest way to get somewhere. I can't seem to keep my head up now that it's my time off. I am very tired.
Anyway, other half of the problem, doing something with the money that'll help me not need to work. The market has changed so much since my last asset allocation plan. I suppose my portfolio still badly needs diversification. A couple more purchases will help with that. It feels like I just can't get money invested fast enough. The recovery has been so sharp, I worry that things might come crashing back down in a month or two. It's hard to decide what to do.