Saturday, January 31, 2009

Another month down

Finally got to the end of the month. I'll guess about 30 to 40 to go. I'm not about to start guessing. A brief summary about the month:
Gross pay: 2873.92
Deductions: 585.22
Net pay: 2288.70
Spending: 91.45
Sales tax: 0.85
Loan payments: 225.91
Savings this month: 1970.49
Total taxes paid: 560.49
% of gross pay going to taxes: 19.5%
% of income going towards loan payments: 7.86% gross, 9.87% net
% of income going towards savings: 68.56% gross, 86.10% net
days worked: 16
Maybe I should do a pie graph next time. My living expenses are artificially depressed, that's just the way my life is right now. I still need to go out and get a bus pass but as of right now that's how this month falls. That changes my spending figures quite a bit, it doesn't change that I'm saving fairly substantial amounts of my net income. Anyway, wow I pay a lot of taxes. I knew it was big, but it's different when it's staring me in the face. My marginal tax rate is roughly 30% last I checked, though I always thought that basic exemptions made more of an impact. Student loan payments are very low and manageable, I am not loosing any sleep over them.
Well, big thing in my life right now, I'm bitter, depressed and angry. Goal for February is to find a new property manager for the shopping plaza. I don't have a personal goal. The search for personal happiness is probably one of the most destructive things that one can take up. It feels like something I need to do though. I'm not sure what I'll find, but I'm not sure I can really move on without it.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I'm way too hung up on the sheer amount of time I've lost in my life now. Makes me feel depressed. The past several times I've opened up to my family about the way I feel, I've been mocked and had my desires completely misconstrued that I don't think I'll tell them. The risks really feel like they outweigh the reward right now.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Another week down

Well, through another week. Somehow I get the feeling that this will be a very long year if I keep counting like this. That's twelve days worked so far. Started getting more rest. Work is a very different place now. Almost scarier. Body feels better though. Nothing really big to report. GST is filed. Hair is still wild. Gotta get things in line for filing taxes.

Withdrawn

I find myself sitting around late at night and I know that I've done this before.  Trying to avoid people.  I also had another revelation, I have questioned my mental state for too many years and spend way too much time thinking about my mind.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I suppose I should start by saying that I had a mixed day. Spent quite a bit of time obsessing over what to say to my brother if he tries poking in too much again. It'll probably be healthier for me if I were to simply approach him about it. Unfortunately, in this case fear overwhelms desire.
Highlight of my day actually occurred pretty close to the start. I had a strange dream involving the number 1249. It's a four digit prime number. Not that special but still nice.
Anyway, right now my body feels very sore. Interesting how that didn't start till after I got out of a nice hot bath.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Week In Review

I guess I should probably say a few more things about what's going on lately. Last week was a bit of a miserable week for me. My headphones broke, I lost a glove and I was an hour late for work on Thursday. I replaced everything and now I'm just feeling depressed. It's very nice out and I should go out to get some fresh fruit and some breakfast stuff for work. Maybe some other stuff to eat. Anyway, I think it's depression, but I don't feel like going out. I just want to sleep. I want someone to hold my hand and take me out. That isn't going to happen though, so I guess I should get ready to go anyway.
Hmm, lets see, what did I start counting last time. I have now worked eight days this year... Quite sad that I'm actually counting. Experimental indexes are still not established. I'm also dreading the end of the month were I have to file GST. Then there's estate stuff and business income tax. Why am I the only one working on this?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

I suppose it's been a while since I stopped to review my week. It was a fairly eventful week, many malfunctions, though it seems like management is starting to get more involved. They provide more encouragement now. It was still a bit of a painful week at work.
Other stuff to report, I got my first pay stub of the year. Also finally got my last credit card bill of last year. I've been waiting for that since December 24. Going to start a few new experimental reit indexes using the start of the year. Not sure what I'll pick right now. One of them will probably be an equal weighted top 10 by market cap. Then a split between my favorites, 3 holding 20% weighting each and 4 with 10% maybe. I'll have to see what else I come up with. I'll probably reset the yield weighted one that I started. Other than that, I suppose the thing I want to do is start a counter of how many days I've worked. Thus far, four.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Times that last forever

Today, I was trying to figure out when my food was going to go bad and it made me realize that the time I spent alone for the holidays were one of those moments that seemed to last forever.  It felt like ages ago.  It was very relaxing though.
One of the things I learnt from watching House is that we have a lot of childish whims.  Well, maybe not so much learnt but it is a recurring theme on the show.  While most of them are stupid and potentially hurtful, harmless ones get ignored too.  A while ago, I had the desire to build a little play fort.  Had the place to myself for a while so I hid away in a little fort for a while.  It was so cozy.  I can think of few better ways I could have spent that week.
While it didn't give me any new answers, I finished the week with a few new question, which are probably just as valuable right now.