I guess before I say more, 35 days down as I go back for another week of work. I don't know what I hate more, the haphazard records of the company that was dropped on me or the dull monotony and industrial conditions of the company I work for. Anyway, I really want to get away from things and just do something big, wild and outrageous. The more I learn about seafaring, the more it feels like I've barely scratched the surface on what there is to know before one sets out on the ocean, though someone suggested a Calgary to New Orleans river trip. I do want to be in motion for a while. Something about changing scenery helps make things feel like they're going somewhere.
Oh yes, the monitor I picked up happened to be a dud, there's a strange buzzing noise and oddly enough it'll work with my laptop but won't do anything with my desktop.
Hmm, other news. I made a good call last week in letting my money stay put till next week. Bought at a much reduced price, however towards the end of the day the price sank further. Question of the moment is what do I do if the price goes back up again? Do I take the chance and sell hoping to buy again at a lower price? Then there's all the other questions of what next. I suppose I'll have to cross that bridge later when I see how things change over the next while.
I still feel very unsettled and want to ramble, but I don't know what more to say.

Shorter Work Week

Well, 24 days down so far. Another three this week. Two more weeks and then I'll be 20% through the year. Maybe I should count all the work days ahead just for fun. I have mixed feelings about that. I suppose it is about half way through Q1. I had two big things right now. I lost a receipt today, it was for my phone card so I'm out $10.50. Trying to shrug it off. Went a little nuts searching everywhere for it, but I'm trying to just accept it and get another one.
The other big one, back on the TV rotting your brain thing. I had an epiphany. A large chunk of my childhood misery can be attributed to someone along the lines somewhere assuming that I was autistic and ignoring any evidence to the contrary. It came to me while I was watching House and how they were treating an autistic patient. Autism might be going a bit far, but treated like there was something wrong with me. It explains the intensive work I had to go through on the basics while I was mastering much more advanced concepts at school. I also say this with many memories of being checked out by various psychiatrists and their conversations with my parents.
It explains things, however it doesn't excuse them. Personally, I wonder if it'll help me forgive. This doesn't change anything going on in the family at the moment. I suppose this changes nothing.

About to start another week

I feel strange. Life is an awkward cycle of days where I'm too busy to do anything followed by days that I don't know what to do. I wonder how long I'll be able to last. I've worked 20 days now, that's roughly a 10th of the year. I can't help wondering if I'll really be able to keep this up as long as I need to. Anyway, gotta gather food. Need more breakfast cereal. I like granola. Also going to prepare hot chicken curry.

Another month down

Finally got to the end of the month. I'll guess about 30 to 40 to go. I'm not about to start guessing. A brief summary about the month:
Gross pay: 2873.92
Deductions: 585.22
Net pay: 2288.70
Spending: 91.45
Sales tax: 0.85
Loan payments: 225.91
Savings this month: 1970.49
Total taxes paid: 560.49
% of gross pay going to taxes: 19.5%
% of income going towards loan payments: 7.86% gross, 9.87% net
% of income going towards savings: 68.56% gross, 86.10% net
days worked: 16
Maybe I should do a pie graph next time. My living expenses are artificially depressed, that's just the way my life is right now. I still need to go out and get a bus pass but as of right now that's how this month falls. That changes my spending figures quite a bit, it doesn't change that I'm saving fairly substantial amounts of my net income. Anyway, wow I pay a lot of taxes. I knew it was big, but it's different when it's staring me in the face. My marginal tax rate is roughly 30% last I checked, though I always thought that basic exemptions made more of an impact. Student loan payments are very low and manageable, I am not loosing any sleep over them.
Well, big thing in my life right now, I'm bitter, depressed and angry. Goal for February is to find a new property manager for the shopping plaza. I don't have a personal goal. The search for personal happiness is probably one of the most destructive things that one can take up. It feels like something I need to do though. I'm not sure what I'll find, but I'm not sure I can really move on without it.

Another week down

Well, through another week. Somehow I get the feeling that this will be a very long year if I keep counting like this. That's twelve days worked so far. Started getting more rest. Work is a very different place now. Almost scarier. Body feels better though. Nothing really big to report. GST is filed. Hair is still wild. Gotta get things in line for filing taxes.

Week In Review

I guess I should probably say a few more things about what's going on lately. Last week was a bit of a miserable week for me. My headphones broke, I lost a glove and I was an hour late for work on Thursday. I replaced everything and now I'm just feeling depressed. It's very nice out and I should go out to get some fresh fruit and some breakfast stuff for work. Maybe some other stuff to eat. Anyway, I think it's depression, but I don't feel like going out. I just want to sleep. I want someone to hold my hand and take me out. That isn't going to happen though, so I guess I should get ready to go anyway.
Hmm, lets see, what did I start counting last time. I have now worked eight days this year... Quite sad that I'm actually counting. Experimental indexes are still not established. I'm also dreading the end of the month were I have to file GST. Then there's estate stuff and business income tax. Why am I the only one working on this?

I suppose it's been a while since I stopped to review my week. It was a fairly eventful week, many malfunctions, though it seems like management is starting to get more involved. They provide more encouragement now. It was still a bit of a painful week at work.
Other stuff to report, I got my first pay stub of the year. Also finally got my last credit card bill of last year. I've been waiting for that since December 24. Going to start a few new experimental reit indexes using the start of the year. Not sure what I'll pick right now. One of them will probably be an equal weighted top 10 by market cap. Then a split between my favorites, 3 holding 20% weighting each and 4 with 10% maybe. I'll have to see what else I come up with. I'll probably reset the yield weighted one that I started. Other than that, I suppose the thing I want to do is start a counter of how many days I've worked. Thus far, four.

week in review

Well, It's the start of another workweek for me. I worry about being completely worn out by the end of it. It's kind of different having gotten so many things done during the weekend. I get paid this week, I'm looking forward to finding out how much I'm earning. This week, I think I have to resolve a few things going on with the rental property. Talk to the manager a bit, and figure out what's going on with regards to one of the leases that doesn't expire for a while. There's a proposal for an extension and an increase. I think the price is the important point in that and the terms less important as long as they don't change much. I'd like to standardize the leases. I suppose I'll push for waiting till we renegotiate the lease that is expiring and try to standardize the leases.
As for the expansion side, I suppose I should start looking into what to expand into. There's still a long way to go before that can go forward, but it never hurts to have more information.
On the personal side, I don't know what's on my to do list. It seems quite blank. Gotta move some money to my savings account once the hold clears, that isn't too exciting. I suppose most of my pay will be going into there as well. Maybe my only goal for now should be to simply sleep well.

Week in Review?

Umm, long story short:
Friday: 12 hours work
Saturday: 12
Sunday: 12
Monday: Off
Tuesday: 10
Wednesday: 10
Thursday: 10
Friday: 9
Total: 75 hours
that's like two weeks worth of work in 8 days. Slept most of Saturday to recover. I could have worked Monday too, but man I didn't want to go there.
Anyway, I forced other stuff in my life to take some time out. Currently rethinking my investment approach. Personally, I think I shouldn't be too concerned with my employer's current situation. Yeah, it's not the nicest situation to be in, but we made a very significant cut. I think it'll be ok.
Next week, 40-49 hours of work. It feels different not being able to watch the markets, but I've got a big enough shopping list as it is.

week in review

This week went ok for me. I still feel pretty good about things. I also came to a rather necessary realization, so many of my weekly goals seem to fall through, I may as well stop setting weekly goals and push for a longer time scale. So, by the end of next month, I hope read through all the material I picked up on my vacation, start recording all my transactions again, and try to make my Thursdays more enjoyable. I feel an incredible disconnect when I can't find people and exchange a few words before disappearing for work. That sounds like a pretty reasonable step.
On a side note, I think I've been getting better sleep lately. Though keyword there being think.

Week in Review?

Do I need a week in review? I don't know. I was on vacation, no goals were set, there are no objectives to comment on. The major things worth mentioning are that my stuff is a mess. Only it's now a mess that isn't very mapped out and concentrated in a few places. I've got to go through everything and sort it. Life seems to be going on as somewhat normal. There's going to be more demands on me now, which I'm not particularly looking forward to.
I'm somewhat more relaxed now. I can play the wait, see and in the mean time augment my income with investments. Also, kind of wondering if there's some kind of cheap project I can take up for a bit of fun, not sure what yet. For the most part, depression has been keeping me from doing much.

Week in Review

So, it turns out that the whole family crisis thing may just simply blow over and have life return to normal for a while. For most of the family anyway. It does rais a lot of questions though. Anyway, it was a busy week involving a good deal of running around. I am pretty drained right now. I prefer quiet weeks to busy ones, much more relaxed. Though man do busy ones feel like something is getting done. Unfortunately, the thing that really needs to progress doesn't go nearly fast enough. Gotta get more money, big time.
No goals were really set, so can't comment on that. Things that needed to get done are largely done, though there's still time for doing a lot of stuff. I think I'll get it done, or rather there isn't really much choice, it kind of needs to get done.

Week in Review

I suppose I should do some sort of review. Having not really set any goals this week, I don't really know what to say. There was a bit of emotional bloodletting as my brother went to France. Finally booked my airline tickets, also eyeing a few hotels. Next time, gotta avoid doing things last minute, but hey things kept coming up and getting in the way. Next week, I have packing to do. Also want to catch up on a few things I want to blog about. Ask for a raise, or maybe wait till I get back to do that. In for some more emotional bloodletting once I travel. I'm hoping for some pretty deep cuts and some rebuilding afterwards. Rebuilding is very important. Right now, I'd probably rate my ability to function as impaired.

Early week in review, declaring an early failure

I haven't gone out this whole week so far. This of course means that I haven't picked up new tax forms. Papers for the account I want to open still haven't arrived in the mail, so that's probably not going to be open next week. My attempts to do something creative also failed. Though I have been browsing other blogs, leaving a few comments here and there.
I spent much of my time sleeping. Normally, I'd see this as a sign that my depression is getting worse. It wasn't because I didn't want to go out, and I wasn't sick. It's just that everything is so far away and I have no pressing need for anything. I can simply pick up my tax forms when I go get my groceries. That's not exactly a pressing matter yet. It's just that I take pleasure in some of the simpler things in life. One of them is simply surrounding myself in nice soft warmth. I am just very incredibly relaxed right now. This is why I work those long hours, so that I can have a few care free days where I don't have to work, prepare for work, or think about working. Though I still question the value of that trade off. Probably better to have a job I like with people I can talk to and management that I can take seriously.