Closing doors

I was thinking of how I want to leave the past behind and start over. For some reason, I was reminded of how we regularly discuss the pros and cons of destroying the last known remaining samples of smallpox. I haven't heard about that in a while. After a bit of research, I found out that smallpox is still kicking and we're due for another discussion on the topic later. While the world will go on with or without smallpox, I don't feel that I have the luxury of living in an uncommitted state indefinitely. I feel a considerable deal of apprehension about it. The time isn't right yet though.